alright... my fb status is currently : xiaoqian wonders why... and i really do wonder why. why cant they understand. why cant they just admit they're at fault too. why must they push the blame away to me...

oh well.. perhaps it's just human. i mean.. eh.. i dunno... gosh. it's just so disheartening when such things happen again.... :(

but on the bright side. thank God. for alvin and qiaomei who keeps checking out of me.. like if i m ok spiritually, emotionally, on my studies-wise too!!! they're really nice people around too..

still struggling with econs! God, need You!!!

All i desire is You

Praise God..

for that moment, hell seems to come over me.. worries and fears grabbed me and overcome me.. thoughts of giving up studying kept playing in my head. i really want to study! i really want to! just that sometimes what you want may not be what you get.. :(

but praise God, His love and peace comforted me. His wings of protection spread over me and brings me back to His goodness...

I believe in the power of Your name
I believe in the promise of faith
I believe in the love of a God
Jesus my Savior
I believe

Speaking to this mountain to move into the ocean
With Your authority given to me
No matter what happens
Here I am standing
On the hope of Your word
Promised to me

hey there bloggie..... i know i promised and really aimed to be happy whole day. even prayed about it, but just need a place to trash out my negative thoughts before it gets me the whole day...

Ruth once shared with me before saying, no one is indispensable. i've been trying hard, making it a point to keep in contact with them, yet it seems like i m doing it myself. does anyone appreciate it? or they would even find it irritating? ...i dunno.

is it just so so hard to maintain the friendship or any relationship?? or it's simply my problem... :(

the one and only one who doesn't and will never fail me would be God. thank God for my parents, siblings, friends, relatives, etc etc. most importantly, thank God for Jesus. for giving Your one and only one. =]

*embracing new hopes each day, and facing the obstacles ahead with a smile =)

alright. i'm better.... ;)

sigh... not so good man. study loan didn't get through again. gosh. things are getting hard. i'm really so fed up with the RHB bank people. cant they do things properly and be more resposible?!! is that too much to ask more? come on. service stardard's so horrible!

anyway, had another econs lesson today. thanks to those who have kindly offered me help.. i'll really need to ask already. cant really understand the front part. but thank God, truly "Ask and you shall receive".. i'm beginning to follow on the right track with the mono-tone lecturer and the lamey lecturer.. =]praise God...

phew. had a rather tough fight with brother. but thank God it's over and things are getting just fine now.... alright. manu match with wigan is starting. let's see how dirty and rough manu players are! (puke!) lol

FAITH IS DARING THE SOUL TO GO BEYOND WHAT THE EYES CANT SEE.... (sweet =) )

right.. i'm really sad now. i seriously mean sad... i just cant get it right.. i'm confused. am i disappointed, frustrated or just plainly sad. gosh... i dunno.....

i can understand what she's trying to get to me. but it's just that, i need her to understand. it's not that i don wan to. but just don like it that way. sigh.. will i still enjoy going back... back to ponder about, should i change cg? (don wanna accept that as a option though, but isit possible??)

postie..

kk. started SIM bridging course last week. and only had few days of rest before i'm back to the chionging part again. was super worried regarding the issue on study loan. isit finally solved? or not yet???? argh!

went out movies with david- 17 Again. was a nice movie=) and after walking around PS awhile, went to meet dg hn and the rest. gosh. it's just awesome hanging out tgt and just talked laughed and have fun... love it.

had a small disagreement with mum before i went out of the house today. saddened.. it's like ok, i know what to do, why does she always have to nag about it again and again. i'm worried and troubled too! why cant she understand how i feel?? BUT at the end the whole "broading over it", i came to this conclusion, no matter how unhappy or frustrated we are when things between 2 person goes wrong, always come back to the point and be reminded of how much you love the other and how much the other loves you.......... =]love you mum.

.... i have to admit i'm blur.. totally out of situations.. zzz. guess what. i missed my first lesson for econs.. how dumb can one be.. zzz....... :(

have already had 2 lessons of math. and God, seriously need Your wisdom to see me through. needed to be more concentrated and disciplined to understand and digest whatever the teacher has taught....