right.. 3rd day liao. missed cgm fellowship this week due to tuition. and missed service due to the headache attack. zz.. been unwell since sat's gastric. does gastric leads to other illness? haha!!

sat was great serving day man.. did busing with irene and we had a great time on the bus with the kids. (though we kinda made wasted rounds to the place) taught math in smartkids tuition. average attendance for the past few weeks were 30+. and this week i taught math, attendance dropped to 12. how encouraging was that man. haha. but thank God. 12 was easy to manage and easy to focus since i know their names....

went to expo to helpout 7-9.. i really love megan!!! 4yr old megan and her brother keian.. cute siblings.. enjoyed helping out there. though i really felt i din help much. but i like it there la.... hahas.

right.. gonna finish up the remarks of p1 for Lynn before i head to bed and R-E-S-T...... no more panadols! hahah!

a new vow made.. a sweet and heart-warming encounter once again. more and more! =]sweet

right. i know it's 5plus in the morning but i just wanna post my thoughts and feelings now before i forget about it. haha!

i just reached home an hour plus ago. praise the Lord. it's really a breakthrough night. first, i met Joy for visitation at 5plus. and visited Kallang area and Bridge Road side. God, i'm gonna do my part and you help me break this ground k. more children to get save from this area!!!!!!

anyway, visitation was great. had a great time of fellowship with Joy as well. and she really taught me alot. and i know this is only the starting...... =] went for tuition at 8pm. and finally the highlight of the night. OPM!!!!

it's my first OPM, and praise God i can go. at first i was really worried when i know i had to ask mum for permission. in my heart and mind, i kept thinking and preparing for answers to counter her questioning. thought she would ask me, go where, do what and all.. but when i told her i'll be home late at around 1am, she ONLY say, you ownself already lack of sleep still want go out till so late... and that's all. she didn't question me or anything. praise God.......

that's not all. OPM was great.. the presence of God just fills the room. and His love just surrounds.. awesome. so, i called back to "bargain" and see if i can come home later, cos i really wanna stay for the entire meeting instead of leaving at 1am. and was approved. and at first, i told them i might go over my friend's place and wait for the first train instead, they were ok!

right, not just that...... i managed to come home at 3plus.. and when mum woke up just now. as in just, she asked. how come you are home. LOL. they don usually allow me to stay out one. but they did.... it's really like what the bible says in:

Psalm 37:4
Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.

just love this amazing God i serve.. =]

to huiying: if you're reading this, i just wanna tell you that, i have been through that period of having strong PO. but God has brought me through and brought me out of it. parents are ok with me attending svc, cg, and even ministry now. and we all worship the same God. and if God can do it for me, He will also do it for you. hang on dear.. it's your breakthrough soon.. jiayou! =]

it has been a great and blessed week..

had another 2 tuition assignment confirmed this week. and i'm really gonna quit starhub le. though in starhub, it's something i'm more easy and confident with doing. but tuition is less time demanding.. i think. haha!

anyway, was really blessed, even financially. thank God for the little little things You've done each day! =] sweet

fri's cell group was awesome. shared a word for the first time. thank God for the word and thank God for the boldness that led me out of my fear.. *glad!! hahas..

James 1:2-8
2My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations,
3knowing this: that the trying of your faith worketh patience.
4But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, lacking nothing.
5If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, who giveth to all men liberally and upbraideth not, and it shall be given him.
6But let him ask in faith, never wavering; for he that wavereth is like a wave of the sea, driven and tossed by the wind.
7For let not that man think that he shall receive anything of the Lord.
8A doubleminded man is unstable in all his ways.

sat is the serving day. hahas. took s08 and return trip. thank God david came to help knowing i'm alone and since he's free. was super packed on sat! s08 then rush for tuition, then go do return. was quite chaotiv at first. but thank God, over over. haha!

after that went expo to help out children's church. isn't it great! seeing different children and their way of loving God purely and wholeheartedly. it just motivates and inspires me to love God even more!

sun's service was awesome. and His presence just fall and it's just awesome... it's been so long since i last cried uncontrollably in His love. for no reason, only His love.... God is love. and love never fails...............................

went to meet Joy after service. what she shared was really something i have thought an felt before... but she realy encourages me alot. and man, after she prayed for me and dessy, my tears continued flowing. gosh! it's embarassing but sweet...

i met this megan in 7-9 service on sat. man, she's so cute!!! and pretty! hahas. my tuition kid, the only gal, Letitia, is a sweet gal too. hahas. not bcos she said i was pretty. oops. (she thought i was married!!! do i look that old? :'( ) lol.... she gave me chocolate =]

exciting and amazing journey with Daddy God continues........... =]

right.. haven been blogging.. so many things just brought me up and down recently..

first got hit-off by 2 saturdays back.. was in a lost state and i totally hate it when i din ask and check things out properly before i assume.. gosh! was in between a dilemma. i cant let either one off. i wun give up tuition for busing, and either will i give up busing on tuition. this is my promise. i cant bear to leave. and i purely just wanna serve God more. i really din expect this to happen though. (nth to consider).......

God.. rain down rain down.. i really need Your strength and wisdom to lead me through the many many decisions-to-make in life. and i really thank God for His grace which carries me through my everyday...

had received 2 tuition assignment so far. aim of leaving starhub should be another step nearer. and like what Joy prayed for me that day, God. i need your wisdom to have better time management and also, i need to know my priorities in the midst of serving God.. i really love Joy man..

tears just kept flowing down uncontrollably. i really hate the disorganise me.. many things were given to me but i just messed things up. and din manage to guard them well.. tell myself, not gonna let it happen again. and i know this takes discipline and God's grace.....

It's You i adore
Jesus my Lord
And all I want is to sit at Your feet
Nothing more

Your perfect love
Hung on a cross
You paid the price for my life
I long to know Jesus my Savior

i adore You
i adore You
i adore You
Jesus my Lord

yesterday was the first cg i had with n451. gosh.. the presence of God just fell upon each and everyone of us, and it's simply awesome.. it's been weeks or months since i ever had this kinda encounter with God in cg. gosh! i just want more...

today was suppose to be a great day, i mean it was, overall.. woke up earlier than usual without lazing on the bed. miracle.. praise God i thought i started the day well and all. just that they were confusions in between and it really hurts.....

guess i shall not go into details. but to be honest, i m really really sad, i thought i could do more in serving the the Lord, and i seriously love serving in busing. the interaction with the kids, attending service with them, etc. though at times it's really draining but God is faithful. as i encourage the kids to draw closer to God, He never forgets me. NEVER.. He never fails to touch me through those kids..... it's really beautiful. [child-like faith]

God is faithful. and the most beautiful thing is that He gives His love unconditionally. Xiaoqian, remember those days when your love is pure and genuine towards loving Him. go back to then.... He's always there... 24/7 =]